She's trying to burn up those memories, but they just won't catch fire.

Future: time that is to be or come hereafter.

Present: being with one or others or in the specified or understood place: to be present at the wedding.

Past: what has existed or has happened at some earlier time: Try to forget the past, now that your troubles are over.


I need to remember that I'm with certain people and having certain experiences now, in the PRESENT, for my FUTURE. My PAST is the past; I need to forget it, like it says in the definition.

My past defines my future. You were there for my future- BUT FOR WHAT REASON?! What part did you play in my past that has to change for my future?? Why did it have to change this way?? And why can't such a huge part of my past be apart of my present? My future? I don't understand.

I shouldn't have done that drive by. And I shouldn't have to think about you.

Your friends are holding me together, you know. Those pieces you broke me into are slowing being put back together by your friends; they're cleaning up your mess.

Remember when we were designated start gazing buddies?? Remember when...

It hits again

It's back. The few short days without the worry were fantastic, but it could only last so long.

They way the world portrays women is hitting me harder than anyone else I know. Society sucks.

Temple experience

I went the the temple with my best friend yesterday. I never have the same experience, and there's never a dull moment- which is probably good considering it's the temple.

Because it was so busy (because the Osmond family was there) we were asked to wait in the chapel until they could fit us into the conformation room. There, one of the temple workers explained the way things were done to the girls who'd never done it before. He mentioned the prayer role.

The second he said that, I thought to myself: who could use the prayers?? My thoughts jumped to my best friend. I turned to mady, I said I was putting our friend on it, and she started to cry; we had the same thought. Through the rest of that testimony, I cried.

I LOVE having a best friend who knows me so well; someone who wants the same things I do. That moment was made so much more special because she was there to share it with me.

We proceeded to put her name in, and I hope it brings some answers to her in her life- she deserves to know the happiness the two of us know.


Man. I love this church.



... And the green light turned yellow, and proceeded to turn red. Oh well.

Just let me rave about healthy living for a sec.

After having the most horrific muscle spasm/ cramp/ hernia after running last Monday, I was sure something was wrong with me. But after only running one mile today, and having to stop due to the same excruciating pain, I needed to find the reason the pain.

I don't quite have the answer, but I have some ideas.

While looking at these ideas, mady gave me this tumblr address- absolutely genius. Amazing! Best ideas for healthy food, that not only are healthy, but actually look appetizing!


Check it---->> undressedskeleton.tumblr.com

You won't regret it!!

Sunday thoughts: don't just be a Sunday Mormon

Brother Empey brought up a great point: don't just be a Sunday Mormon. Don't just do it because your parents make you- do it because YOU want to. Pay your tithing because you've been taught to and KNOW you're being blessed for it, go to church because you WANT to, have faith that things will go the way the lord has said they will.

Also, brother Scott gave a lesson to our whole youth about how the lord prepared the America's to be the receiving land of Christs second coming. He talked about Christopher Columbus and his fiery passion- given to him through the holy ghost- to make the trip the the west indies by boat. He said had he not spent 10 years trying to live that passion, he would not have found our country, which all our freedoms would not exist without.
We need to be an active part in our community, know what's going on politically so that we can choose the most wise and just man to lead our country. Tough times are coming, but we can't lose faith in Him- this is all part of his plan and we need to hold strong to the iron rod.


I believe I am NOT just a Sunday Mormon. Are you?



... And he left her mind spinning, her heart wondering.

Book-making prep

We're making a book. And my email is kaput. Hence the obnoxious picture adding to my blog. I apologize..

Because I love them :)

Words cannot describe how much I truly, honestly, wholly, and adoringly LOVE these girls! They are my light on a dark day, my smile in a sea of frowns, my best friends in a world of fakers and backstabbers.

They got me through the hardest time in my life, and they got me out on top. Everything is OK because they showed me what it was like to be happy with what you have, to make the littlest things the best best things. They gave me confidence, endurance, and strength :) I can face whatever is thrown at me because I have my sisters at my side, ready with ice cream, their fists, and their own tears to comfort me ;)

I know I wouldn't be who I am without them- I wouldn't want to be anything else than what they've made me :)

I love you girls- I can't wait for the coming years: senior year, college, married and living next door, and being old, wrinkly ladies with joining rooms in the rest home ;)- you're not getting rid of me easily!!


To live a life with no best friends... Well that isn't the life to live.