(fu·ture)
something that will exist or happen in time to come: The future is rooted in the past.
WILL.
Whether you're ready or not, the future is going to happen.
It won't wait for you.
It knows you have to follow...
with or without a plan.
But the thing about the future, is it comes so fast you hardly have time to make a plan (a very vague plan, but a plan nonetheless).
It's like a shadow: you've always been able to see it; it's always been there. But not until the sun is setting do you realize the shadow will soon disappear and another will be cast again tomorrow- a new one, one made for another day.
My sun is setting.
My shadow is coming to an end.
It's getting ready to rise on another day.
Where did my "day"go?
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Another thing about the future is that it changes based on your past, your present even.
My future changes daily.
One day I'll be headed off to college at the U.
The next I'm going to UVU and living with my best friend.
Another I'm going to SUU with boys.
And then you have weeks where you don't even plan on going to college.
Instead you decide to live in Germany for the summer. Get a job, learn a language, experience a culture.
And then come home and leave on another 18 month vacation.
yes. my mission.
"Don't cry about it. It's all going to happen"
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And then you have the topic of boys.
*sigh*
We had a good time.
I over analyse everything.
"It's okay to say you have a weak spot"
"You're vulnerable.. You're lovable"
I may not be a robot, but I feel just about as much as a hunk of metal does.
That's right. They don't have feelings.
It was fun to have a few times out together.
But I see it now, so they'll stay as fun memories.
...You be The Writer and decide the words I say. You be the sculptor and I'll be the clay.
I am clay in God's hands. He will turn me into something beautiful. I needn't worry. Just try my hardest.
