Rollerblading isn't one of my talents...

Of course I suggested rollerblading. I haven't rollerbladed since 5th grade, and even then I was no good. Haha, at least we got some talking done. but the back of my legs are rubbed up pretty dang bad. Cute, clo.

I'm grateful to have him around again... It's such a breathe of fresh air. I thought I wanted to get rid of that girl completely, but I just couldn't; I was always missing some aspects of that life. I think he's the closest thing I'll get to it, and this is as close as I want to be :)

Thanks for being there... I never know how much I need a person until they enter my life, whether for the first time, or.... About the 7th time :)

Also, how wrong of me was it to even start something? I shouldn't have said a thing. Although my life is nowhere near perfect, I guess I put on a pretty good face. What's wrong with people thinking I have it easy? Isn't that a persons primary goal in life; to make people believe they're okay all on their own?? Maybe not, but I feel like people spend their whole lives doing something along those lines.


... Seeing an old friend smiling and waving was just the cherry on top. Thanks for driving by.

You mustn't be afraid to dream a little bigger, darling. Tahxxxxx

You mustn't be afraid to dream a little bigger, darling.

... And she painted her walls, built her music collection, and her heart showed passion.

We be sneaky people

Today I got the chance to go to Orange Leaf with my old buddy, Adam. It was sooooo nice to sit and catch up with him. Like, it's just so natural with him. Maybe that's because I've known him for so long that I just kinda trust him. I loved having a part of my old life back in my life, even if it was for just tonight (but I hope it happens more often).
Anywho, after orange leaf and talking and such, we decided we needed to do something crazy, so it was perfect that Mady called right then. She met us at the school, and we decided we would sneak up on top of the school to stargaze, right after she changed. As we were sitting in Adams car waiting, he decided to see if the school was open. .............................................................................................................................................................................................................................
Now, I'm a bit of a baby, but I look like a superhero when Adams around he's such a wimp. This is the boy that won't watch scary movies!! I was shocked :) but it was so fun :)
We then tried to find a good way to get on the roof of the school, but... We failed. So we laid on the football field and looked at stars.
It was really fun :) this was the funnest thing Adams done all summer, which really wasn't like the fun we can really have, so I'm excited for him to see us at our best :)

.... And she continued to smile.

Tah

Tuesday night sleepover

Our food choices are really quite unhealthy. But you know... Yolo. Yolo, Yolo, Yolo.


Just as long as I can go to school and people wont look at me and think in their noggins "wow, Chloe sure did gain a lot of weight", I'll be fine! They can think "man, Chloe sure looks healthy compared to the walking toothpick she used to be". .....this food choice probably isn't helping that.


...and she cuddled nicely next to him, her head fitting perfectly in his shoulder.

Tahx.

I'm a bit unsure.

It's my third year being on the drill team, and I'll also be a senior. In the drill team world, usually senior third years are captains. Most everything is done by seniority. Actually, everything is; who's in front, who's in charge, who goes first, who counts... It's all done by those seniors. So I would have thought it would have been me. I obviously wouldn't have been head captain, but I expected to be a captain. But instead, a second year junior is in my spot. I'm not upset that she's a captain, it's just that I'm NOT.

I've stuck this thing out for three years, very hard years, and I am in charge of the costume closet, which, by the way, was taken care of today... By the whole team. Not once was I asked what to do or what my take was.

Another thing seniors get the privilege of is front, or near the front, in most every dance. I came back to find that I am in the back in almost every formation, with a bunch of first years who know nothing about drill team! They have so much to learn and fix..., and I can't even say anything, even though I've been there the longest, next to Mady. I think it kind of unfair that I'm not a captain, to put it out there in black and white.

As I was sitting out, because of my injury, I got a glimpse of the coming competition year; Chloe not in the front, anger bottled up, using everything in me to refrain from exploding, and having a bad time because of all that. I was holding back tears nearly the whole practice. To make it worse, I can't even dance!! I have to sit out, and I know everyone is disappointed. I'm sorry I've been quiet and pushed through this for over a year; now its chronic.. And gonna take a whole lot longer than just 2 weeks to heal. But what am I doing? I'm training and conditioning just like everyone else, even though this injury is probably going to affect me my whole life.

So ask me if I'm ready to put my 110% into this year?? No. I'm not ready. And all I want to do I cry. But I want to cry to someone who isn't around, but knows me so well. And no, it's not who you are all thinking, it's his best friend... Well his best friend when I was around. I need someone who was there through it all, who knows the old me, and can maybe make her emerge for just a second.

I see potential in this year, I'm just afraid that I'm going to be holding back a lot because it's not my place to say anything... Even though so much needs to be said. And I know the people in charge right now won't say anything.

I need an understanding shoulder to cry on.



...and she had a skin disease and a Rudolph nose.