Saturday, May 25, 2013

They drank from porcelain cat mugs


Why do good things happen to bad people?? 

Last night was so nice. Spent time with my old girlfriends, listened to good music, danced away the night, kissed the sweetest boy, and talked to someone who.. Probably still knows me better than anyone else. Or used to. 

I was sitting in the backseat listening to some song that had me looking out the window smiling at life, when a friend reached over and touched my leg. He said "I'm going to miss you, Chlo." And just with those small words, he had me swelling with too much emotion. 

I was sitting in my driveway with part of my past, talking about our lives. And just like we didn't have a past, I told them basically everything that's happened in the last two months (in a nutshell). Over the course of the night, the past was brought up and so was the future. It was nice. 

I was dancing with a part of my present when he reminded me of the full moon. We ran to the "A" and our lips touched. My present will go with me to my future as part of the memoirs from a great past. 

As I thought about my future, my present and my past reminded me how ready I am to handle this. Thank you to both; I've learned how to love through both, how to overcome hard things, and how to smile. Because of both, my future has a bright outlook. 



It was just a small mix up in emotion. But that small mix up ruined some good things. Hmmm. 


Sunday, May 19, 2013

i won't fall out of love, i'll fall into you

i'm feeling so infinite right now. the moments that my heart seems to reach so many different ways; it reaches so long i get a sense of how long "infinite" really is.

i can say these feelings are due to the sweet boy who says cheesy things and then apologizes for his sweetness. i could say it's because i'm listening to the music that does that to me. or i could say it's because of a boy i like to consider my best friend, a big brother, and a feelings-maker. i could say it's because i've become comfortable with going out with a boy who dances with me to my car. maybe it's because i graduated seminary tonight next to the greatest youth i've ever known. maybe it's because i've felt the loving spirit.

maybe it's because i realized he is to me what he is to you; that comforting arm on a hard day, when my tears become a rainstorm and blend into the rain.



... maybe she wanted her to be right. maybe it wouldn't be so bad.


maybe.