Happy 4th, darling

We got crafty :)


.... Spot the Mormons!


We drove around town looking for parking so we could watch fireworks. And while doing that/ slash after that, I realized a few things. One) fireworks are the most beautiful thing ever. Two) I remember why I wouldn't let myself care about you; because it feels like this once you stop caring about me. Three) interesting as it might be, I think I might hit that up. I mean.... Maybe I won't have to. But I'd really love it if it could work. K, thanks. Four) boys, just stay away. I'm not falling for anyone ever again. Don't make me remember those feelings, no matter how shallow they might be. Five) I have chapped lips 95% of the time. Six) when you have to pee really bad, being a girl gets really inconvenient. Seven) I. Am. Not. A. Family. Person. At all.



... And the words "just leave me be" were the last to that chapter. Chapter two:...

Rollerblading isn't one of my talents...

Of course I suggested rollerblading. I haven't rollerbladed since 5th grade, and even then I was no good. Haha, at least we got some talking done. but the back of my legs are rubbed up pretty dang bad. Cute, clo.

I'm grateful to have him around again... It's such a breathe of fresh air. I thought I wanted to get rid of that girl completely, but I just couldn't; I was always missing some aspects of that life. I think he's the closest thing I'll get to it, and this is as close as I want to be :)

Thanks for being there... I never know how much I need a person until they enter my life, whether for the first time, or.... About the 7th time :)

Also, how wrong of me was it to even start something? I shouldn't have said a thing. Although my life is nowhere near perfect, I guess I put on a pretty good face. What's wrong with people thinking I have it easy? Isn't that a persons primary goal in life; to make people believe they're okay all on their own?? Maybe not, but I feel like people spend their whole lives doing something along those lines.


... Seeing an old friend smiling and waving was just the cherry on top. Thanks for driving by.

You mustn't be afraid to dream a little bigger, darling. Tahxxxxx

Greatest time of my life: my life/ friends/ summer are better than yours.

Today I was talking with madalyn and Stephanie about how different I had become since my breakup. We had decided that while I was in it, I was bland and, quite frankly, rude. But since I gave it up, I have become my own me, someone who is fun and is learning to let go. That person held my potential back so bad, and I regret not giving us both the opportunity to grow and have fun separately much sooner.
I'm happy to say I don't regret a single thing that's happened since February; things all happen for a reason. Maybe the reason this all happened was so that I could meet Sam, someone who is teaching me so much I didn't think I'd ever have the chance to learn. I think he's really going to help me be more open- minded about the world and the people and their views.
But mostly, I realized how AMAZING it is to two girls in my life who are willing to do anything for me; to always be there for me, whether that be in good times or bad. Having girls like that are what make my life, and every bad thing in it, worth it. They get me through every single day :) and I've seen that life is just better if I stick with them; no boys, taking pictures, making memories, and planning our futures together :)
None of this would be happening to me if one little person hadn't had the guts to say 'let's be done'. My breakup was the beginning of the happiest time of my life :) :)

....and she watched the fireworks surrounded by her closest friends, laughing the whole time.

Tah.