the parts of dancing i don't enjoy....

the 'giver-upers'.
the quitters.
the whiners.
the 'this-is-too-hard'ers.
the betrayal.
the petty competition between girls.
the 'i' in team.
sloppy arms.
sloppy legs.
not pointed toes.
and betrayal.

don't get me wrong.. i love and adore every person on my team.
but sometimes...
sometimes people rub you the wrong way.
and you get angry.
and want to punch things.
really hard.
over and over again.
and they only way to make that go away...is be better than them. let it go and kick their butt.

now that you've all seen the physical, and slightly scary, part of Chloe....
I'm gonna go now :]

have a lovely day!!

tah
xxx

the fibers of my being ache for this one passion... dance.

have you ever been so excited to do something... that your whole self feels EXCITED??? alive?

well goodness.

i feel as if my nerves are on fire.

all i want to do is dance.
to turn, turn for ages. and do it well, and beautifully.
to jump, to leap. to leap high, and with grace. to feel the beauty your body can create. to SOAR through the air.
to capture those moments, and movements, in pictures.
and to admire them.

this week i found that i love to jump. and that I'm quite good at it. i LOVE it.
i love to turn as well. as long as i am NOT in gore boots on newly refurnished floors.
:]

can i just say....

do what you're passionate about. and do it well! and love it! take it all in. don't let the hard times get you down. go for it!! go for it FULLY! don't have regrets :]

of course... we all envy ladies like these... and wish that we could be just as beautiful. maybe in my next life.

also.
i have red hair :] pictures... soon?

"... if we want a picture, I'll have to roll up shorts up, and pull my duck down."

tah\XO

i dress like a mom..??

is it strange... or worrisome... that i am told i dress like a mom?

not to be cocky, cause that is definitely not what i am, but i don't think moms could look as good as me.

just saying.

"....she's like the mom of the team."

tah

xo



cutest names!.. and random things..

i thought id share these names now before i forget that i love them :]

1. Sutton (girl)
2. Spencer (girl)
3. Phoebe (girl)
4 Andrew (boy)

haha... can you tell which kind of kid i want?? kind? i talk like they're a pair of shoes... oh well. not something I'll be actually thinking about for.... 10 years? yes, at least that :]

also.

school.
i really hate school. i have such an inward anger towards it.
I'll go to school, tell myself I'm going to be good that day and i won't get angry at the teachers...
but i go and what do i do??? lose my temper.
great. and whole other year of it.
and.
and I'm not very excited to see... some certain people.
I'll control myself and be nice..
i am just certainly NOT excited to see you :] :]


one more thing.

drill.
starts up again tomorrow.
who knows what direction I'll take:
1. stay with it and stick it out...and pray that the best happens.
or
2. quit, get a job, have a real social life, do well in school.... possibly get fat.
who knows!
tomorrow and Tuesday will determine my path...


I've got a brain full of random things lately :] its absolutely beautiful :]

nothing funny happens in life anymore. so...
tah/xxx

CrossFit..... ouch?

if you've ever heard of CrossFit, you've probably heard that it sucks and that people hate it.

i am no different.

the blistered hands.
the muscles that you didn't even know could be sore.
not being able to sit.
getting down on yourself cause you can only bench 55 as your max weight.
getting down on yourself again cause you can only do 40 pull ups in 20 minutes. and almost puking. twice.

but!

i love it :] its such an amazing feeling to know you just worked hard.
and guess what?
i don't hate it :] i was kidding...it's actually really fun!

and... it makes you happy. its like a good kind of drug :]


looking for a good workout?? may i suggest CrossFit???

tahxxx

the week of girls camp

first off, i would like to say this:

If you love something, set it free.

 If it comes back, it was meant to be.

 If it continues to fly, let it soar, have faith that God has something better in store.

this week i was at the beloved GIRLS CAMP. upon 'The Temple on the Mount', i had a marvelous time. from laughs, to tears, to stinky, yucky girls, to just plain tired... i had the best kind of week.

as i go to girls camp each year, we have a stake theme: OH THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!- Dr. Suess.

but i also have a personal theme. this theme is the point that sticks out most to me throughout the whole week. this year it was: the fact that earthly things don't matter. my looks, money, body image, objects that bring short bouts of happiness. of course the decisions we make now will determine our eternity, and i think i'm choosing quite well as of right now, but i need to focus on more of an eternal perspective.

we also talked a lot about writing our own story.

we often write our own stories, but what we forget, is that perhaps the Lord has something else in store for us. and guess what? it always ends up making our story to our happily ever after... so much sweeter. so much closer to perfection.

while going through these moments, they seem hard, quite unbearable, and like we can't possibly make it through. but let me assure you, that with the help of our loving Savior, we can. but we must put our trust in Him.

that's so much easier said, than done. i know.

i love girls camp for the rejuvination it brings. it refocusses us on what is truly important. and i love it. i love the spirit that every girls feels upon that mountain. it is truly a temple. and its my favorite one.

**************

'once upon a time, a girl was born into this life; heaven could be seen in her eyes. there was no doubt she was divine. and if we are still, you will understand: that the princess in this wonderous story.... is you.

its your time! its your destiny to shine! so arise! be true to the royal thats inside of you.

dont settle for the story that the world would you write. you were born to reach eternal life.

let faith fill every chapter. let the Savior lead you to: happily ever after."

as we sang this song each night, and came to the very last chorus, you could feel it. you could feel the Savoirs love so strong.... it brought you to tears. YOU WERE BORN TO REACH ETERNAL LIFE! wow. the power that sentence has is incredible. dont forget it! dont let the world snatch you and suck you in. you were born to be so much more than just an ordinary girl.

you are a daughter of your Heavenly Father, who loves you, and you love Him.

**************

i got on facebook (because we all know thats where we all go after being absent) and i got to see the pictures and good times my many friends had on trek. it was so cool knowing that so many of our strong youth could have such a powerful week... even in different places. we are strong indivuals... and we can do hard things.

I am so glad to be a member of this incredible youth. wow. what a blessing.

I am so glad for my testimony.... it really comes down to only that in the end. thats all we have left. strengthen it by going to these wonderful experiences like trek and girls camp. it will get you throught

i love this gospel with all that i am. those who dont have it... wow. you're missing out.

"your bunk has the funk.. real bad" - everyone that had to witness the stench of camille.

tah

xxx

 

my addiction to traveling: where i want to go.

i've made a list of things to accomplish and places to go.

lately all i've wanted to do is travel.
i'm addicted to it like a drug.

#1



Temple in the Middle East.

#2

Take cute pictures in front of the Eiffel Tower.

#3

go golfing in Scotland

#4

go walking in the rain of Wales

#5

go snorkeling in Hawaii

#6

go on an African Safari

#7

rafting in Peru



no one understands my gravitational pull to traveling....

its weird to explain.

so just get me out of here!!

some people feel they are made to do something.

this is what i believe i was sent to do.



"hey look. that sign says you have to be "40" (inches) to buy alcohol."

actually... those are parenthesis.

tah

XXX