youth conference: what i've learned...

I had youth conference the last 3 days... and let me tell you!!

it was amazing :]

definitely a different experience than the last AFY (American Fork Youth) that i went to, but it was awesome :]

i met some people... or maybe just one ;] and they made it okay that my dumb, loser, bad-attitude-having- friend wasn't there :] thanks!

while we were there, three things never left my mind:

1. I AM going to the Celestial Kingdom... because i am a worthy Temple Recommend holder :]

2. "We are as the Army of Heleman".... we are such strong youth! oh my goodness...its absolutely incredible!

3. I know what the spirit feels like :] i have come to know and understand it. i have never had a time when i haven't felt it because... well! i haven't done anything to make it leave :] and i never want it to!

i am so blessed to be apart of this church.. because its true, the only true church, and i don't know where i would be without it.

i know my Savior loves me, and every each one of you, as well. we are His sons and daughters and he wants nothing more than for us to return to Him :]

no matter the deep, dark hole you have dug for yourself, you can always get out :] through love and repentance, it can be as if nothing ever happened :] and that is such a comforting feeling :]

i hope that you can feel His love as well... there's nothing better :]

TAH

xxx



being invisible S.U.C.K.S.

Sweet pea, Apple of my eye...Don't know when and I don't know why....You're the only reason I keep on coming home....................................................Sweet pea, Keeper of my soul, I know sometimes I'm out of control. You're the only reason I keep on coming home.

oh how sadly pathetic that is... because it's true.

after this terrible weekend, (first getting a call canceling your date, second seeing a deer and almost peeing my pants, and a few more unfortunate events that i will not talk about. then the next day showing up at a baseball game to find that every single one of your stupid friends is there.... and you didn't receive an invite. o.u.c.h. then fighting a friend until she agrees to going to this party, but only if you'll come in and say hi. ((mind you i was NOT invited and was NOT intending on staying)) i went and found out that basically every single one of my stupid friends was there. o.u.c.h.) i realized that i have no friends.

none.

my 'team'.... yeah. they don't even acknowledge me. it's fine. NOT.
on more than one occasion, i will walk up to them and try to strike up a conversation, but i will get ignored.... like i wasn't even there, let alone speaking to them. sorry, *ladies*..... i didn't know i'm not good enough to hold a conversation with you. sorry for thinking you liked me. at least a little bit.

now... if you've never had this kind of feeling... you're lucky. because lately, it's my constant companion.

some might say it's my fault. maybe because of that boy, but let me inform you... it is not him.

the reason i spend so much time with him is because, from the very beginning, you never liked us. get over yourselves. it is your life??? NO. do you have any right to think the things you do or say the things you do?? NO.
thank goodness i have at least one person that will stick by my side. listen to my tears. my fears. my insecurities. thank goodness for best friends. you're the reason i keep comin home.
(and thank you to one friend inparticular...who sat with me and listened. i love you.)


have a fabulous week.
only 4 more days.
for me.
i'll try to enjoy it.
...and try not to burst into spontaneous tears.
TAH
XXX

May: first official day of sun bathing....

yes. i am one of those people who consider 60 degrees to be warm

but i couldn't help it!!

it was beautiful :]

and after lunch today.....

i just had to get back out there!

but this time, in a swimsuit.

it was very refreshing and i have my fill of vitamin D.

today i also decided what i'm doing this weekend.

1. i'm doing a makeover

2. it's going to be on a boy

3. i will be recieving one in return

4. it will be done by a boy

5. i have very willing and wonderful friends :]

TAHXXX