tradition and thoughts

Almost every Sunday night, I have a Skype session with one of my very best friends. And almost every time we talk, I have an 'ah ha!' moment- he just seems to know what to say, even when I'm not necessarily looking for the right words. He just says things that hit me in just the right spot at just the right moment.
Tonight we discussed what we discuss every time we speak, without fail: our missions. He finishes the last part of his papers this week, and then he's got his last interview, and then they're off! His call will be coming a whole lot sooner than any of  us are prepared for. Especially me.
I was thinking about missions in Sacrament meeting, as I always do, and as our 1st Counselor read a letter from our stake presidency regarding the mission age change, it hit me; my friends are leaving. The boys I've looked up to so much over the years are leaving. And when they leave, yeah, I won't have much time myself, but I won't have anyone to talk to. Oh, I will miss them so terribly. But then I won't, because they are doing the best thing any person could do for their lives, and I am so PROUD of them. I love them like my brothers, which I never had, so they basically are.
We also discussed a subject that's been on my mind more than ever. That's all I'll say, but again, he knew what to say. He's so on point about things that he gets me to cry. Or maybe he just lets me talk and that's what gets me going... That's probably what it is. No one lets me talk about those silly and serious things; I'm glad he does.

This one's for you, for your happiness, your future, and your incredible decision. I'm lucky and blessed to know you.

Swerve.

Yesterday was our last drill competition ever. wow. I made it? Really? It's almost over? What a relief! I'm grateful that we had our little get away- it was a really insightful night. I came to know that my thoughts and insecurities really aren't that different from those around me. And it was such a relief. Maybe there's really not as much wrong with me and I initially thought. Phew.

So gratified for my tender mercies. Let's get through this together.
He's in it if I am.