I'm so aggravated.

It doesn't hurt.. It makes me sad :)
It's not hard... It's shocking :)
It's not dumb... It's unfair :)
Its not that I'm not there... It's that I've been replaced so quickly :)
It's not different... It's not how it's supposed to be :)
Its not that you're happy... It's that you're happy without me :)

And yet I still try to smile and be grateful :)

Don't fall in love... It only breaks you apart.

Tahxxx

Sometimes, life crashes down in the matter of one night. That one might changes who you are, the way you act, and the relationships you had. I have had the unfortunate opportunity to experience this. All I know I am.. Can't be.
And the worst part, please don't feel sorry, but I have to share... And not one person takes into account this poor girls feelings.
I've told myself I'm okay and I'll move on; he's happy. But truth is, I'm not okay. I told myself it was okay that he didn't tell me he loved me, but it's not okay. I said dating other people would make me happy if it made him happy, but it hasn't. No one thinks about me. Yeah, I'm being selfish. But I can't just say its okay in 7 days. Already there have been many advances on him... None on me... None thinking of that poor girl he used to like.
Crying is weak, but my heart feels too strongly; that's the only thing it knows how to do.

I just want it back. With that I didn't have to feel insecure, worried, alone, confused, wondering... Because I always knew.

Life goes on... It just takes a sec :) I'm okay :)
Tah

Thank goodness for my blog.
There's no one around to listen, although you think there would be between my team and my boyfriend. I'm afraid if I don't get this off my chest, I'll explode. A full blown, emotional volcano will erupt and everyone will know.

Life's hard. Schools hard. Friends are hard. Decisions are hard. I want someones shoulder to cry on, and someone arms to hold me tight. There's just no one to do that anymore. Once, my world was full of those people, but they've slipped away. Im a different person.. Who needs different people around, but you can't just buy them... You have to make them. Too bad they're hiding.

Dear friends, old, new, or soon to be found, I'm a little lost and would love a nice pat on the back, just telling me that it's okay. Thats all.

This is probably just my periods emotions speaking, so ironically I'll be okay in 5 days. These feelings only pop up when it's here. TMI... I know.

Tah
Xxx

Hey guys... Just a bunch of random thoughts...

I seriously have an obsession with wedding dresses. Actually, just weddings in general!
I wish I could just get married now because everything I want is in style ... And I'm afraid what I want won't be in a few years down the road.
Maybe if I could just design someone's wedding... Id be okay. Hmmm.. Yeah, that's what I'll do :)

Get me in college and in a design studio :) Also, get me a wedding :) I'm obsessed...

Sincerely,
Chloe

Tah
Xxx

today.....???

i made a goal when the new term/ new year started that I would get no more D's on any more tests (because, yes, i get D's).

i'm sad to say that didn't last long at all. i got a D on my math test.

its like no matter how hard i try, i'm JUST NOT SMART ENOUGH. i'm not saying that for sympathy... i'm just not.

today i couldn't help but just feel sorry for myself. i had a physics date over the weekend, and it didn't go well at all. i felt like i just was just so dumb! that feeling came back to me today. after seeing my test grade, it took all that i was to not burst into tears. people are always complaining at that B- they got on their test, when i know that i just got a D... without even looking. i'm so sick of not feeling good enough.

school is hard... i just want to quit. my GPA is totally screwed because i'm taking REQUIRED classes that are too hard for me. that then effects of my terrible GPA effect then my college applications and the way colleges will look at me. which right now... they won't even be looking.

no matter how hard i try.. things continue to fall apart for me. maybe its just a low point in my life, but it really sucks feeling inadiquate.

i'm not complaining anymore.. its just been a sad day. this would have been journal worthy, i'm just way too lazy to write it... so hopefully, if anyone reads what i have to say, you'll just over look a bad day.

tah