the week of girls camp

first off, i would like to say this:

If you love something, set it free.

 If it comes back, it was meant to be.

 If it continues to fly, let it soar, have faith that God has something better in store.

this week i was at the beloved GIRLS CAMP. upon 'The Temple on the Mount', i had a marvelous time. from laughs, to tears, to stinky, yucky girls, to just plain tired... i had the best kind of week.

as i go to girls camp each year, we have a stake theme: OH THE PLACES YOU'LL GO!- Dr. Suess.

but i also have a personal theme. this theme is the point that sticks out most to me throughout the whole week. this year it was: the fact that earthly things don't matter. my looks, money, body image, objects that bring short bouts of happiness. of course the decisions we make now will determine our eternity, and i think i'm choosing quite well as of right now, but i need to focus on more of an eternal perspective.

we also talked a lot about writing our own story.

we often write our own stories, but what we forget, is that perhaps the Lord has something else in store for us. and guess what? it always ends up making our story to our happily ever after... so much sweeter. so much closer to perfection.

while going through these moments, they seem hard, quite unbearable, and like we can't possibly make it through. but let me assure you, that with the help of our loving Savior, we can. but we must put our trust in Him.

that's so much easier said, than done. i know.

i love girls camp for the rejuvination it brings. it refocusses us on what is truly important. and i love it. i love the spirit that every girls feels upon that mountain. it is truly a temple. and its my favorite one.

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'once upon a time, a girl was born into this life; heaven could be seen in her eyes. there was no doubt she was divine. and if we are still, you will understand: that the princess in this wonderous story.... is you.

its your time! its your destiny to shine! so arise! be true to the royal thats inside of you.

dont settle for the story that the world would you write. you were born to reach eternal life.

let faith fill every chapter. let the Savior lead you to: happily ever after."

as we sang this song each night, and came to the very last chorus, you could feel it. you could feel the Savoirs love so strong.... it brought you to tears. YOU WERE BORN TO REACH ETERNAL LIFE! wow. the power that sentence has is incredible. dont forget it! dont let the world snatch you and suck you in. you were born to be so much more than just an ordinary girl.

you are a daughter of your Heavenly Father, who loves you, and you love Him.

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i got on facebook (because we all know thats where we all go after being absent) and i got to see the pictures and good times my many friends had on trek. it was so cool knowing that so many of our strong youth could have such a powerful week... even in different places. we are strong indivuals... and we can do hard things.

I am so glad to be a member of this incredible youth. wow. what a blessing.

I am so glad for my testimony.... it really comes down to only that in the end. thats all we have left. strengthen it by going to these wonderful experiences like trek and girls camp. it will get you throught

i love this gospel with all that i am. those who dont have it... wow. you're missing out.

"your bunk has the funk.. real bad" - everyone that had to witness the stench of camille.

tah

xxx

 

best week: ever. period.

Tuesday: getting caught in the rain with my best friend, my other really good friend, and his sudden obsession ((a very beautiful girl whom i love)). very wonderful.

Wednesday: mmmmm... SPARKLERS WITH JILL AND HEIDI! check it:

Thursday: i had a lazy day. my best friend. me. sitting and watching movies together. and nothing else. makeup-less. cute hair-less. and in nothing figure complimenting in any way. very wonderful.

Friday: a short trip to the pool. me. my best friend. my very close friend. without his sudden obsession ((we heard about how much he missed her)). but only 3 short hours. not enough.

Saturday: started with a parade: hot. long. sweaty. pretty alright.
               went hiking: waited. for hour and a half. went. to the wrong 200 south ((we were in Lindon... we were supposed to be in pg)). my best friend getting us unlost after getting us lost. pretty funny.

                getting there: going up the wrong trail. finding the right trail. wow.... going up hill. the whole time. basically running. thank goodness for waterfalls. pretty beautiful.

                *time in between: finding a spot. painting with mud. pushing in. quiet time. spying ((hahahahaha!!!!! oh man. can't wait to hear about the details)). running back down the trail. only to find out we didn't have to rush. pretty.... amazing. ((that word doesn't even work in my vocabulary anymore)).

                getting ready: cute hair. fresh makeup. blue poncho. green floral shorts. earrings. sandals ((that never actually made in on my feet for more than 10 minutes)). going to Adams. pretty pumped.

                driving there: boy: "hey! we saved you some pizza!" me:"they saved us some pizza!!" girl:"did you say 2 pieces?? man.. we could eat two pizzas!". pretty hungry.

                showing up: "2 pieces?!" hahahahahahahaha. pizza. crazy bread. brownies. no scary movies ((because we didn't want people to be sleeping with their parents)). chick flicks. sleepless in Seattle. tomatoes. pretty funny.
                fireworks: driving forever trying to find somewhere to park. finding a place. running into parents. sitting away from parents ((not that i would have minded sitting with them)). the most amazing firework show I've seen. beautiful.
                waiting for traffic to slow: cuddling. patcha ((from the emperors new groove)). laughing. dry eyes. wet eyes. pretty perfect.

what an amazing week.

love being surrounded with those i love.

love actually having a summer.

love being happy.

love kissing.

love. love. love.

love incomplete sentences.

and periods.

makes things sound final.

love my readers.

COMMENT!!!

tahXXX    ((Cali on Friday!! whoop! might come back without hair. we'll see :)))

summer nights: caught in the rain

park. thunder. lightening. beautiful sights. shining lights. pouring rain. soaking wet. running. holding hands. ice cream. movies.

l.o.v.e.

we got caught in the middle of the pouring rain.

the warm, heavy, beautiful, summer rain.

oh.

those summer nights.

tah/xxx

just some random things: happy, sad, thoughts, hearings, events...

well hi.
i know you have forgotten about Chloe's poor, poor blog.
but i'm back and ready to be happy again!!

just some random things.

1. i have heard from a few people that they know of people who read my blog. but they also mention that they think i might find it creepy.
HAHA.
let me asure you, i do not :] my blog is here for random people to read it :] please feel free (i would also greatly appreciate it) to comment :]

2. wow. ITS FINALLY SUMMER!!!

3. so.......
i'm obsessed with this show.
maybe you've heard of it??
Pretty Little Liars.
oh my.
which brings me to...

4. i'm FREAKING IN LOVE with all the music on that show!!!
its just the absolute best thing out there.
check it:

http://abcfamily.go.com/specials/music/videos-details/sound-booth/cant-go-back-now-the-weepies/pl_PL5570398/vd_VD55131623

http://abcfamily.go.com/specials/music/videos-details/sound-booth/add-my-effort-the-weepies/pl_PL5570398/vd_VD55131629

(that would just be two of my many favorites)


5. i'm happy again :] i got to see my friends, i got to finally enjoy summer weather. i got to sleep in passed 7!!!
life.
is.
good.

6. some people are dumb. get over yourselves. just cause i'm in the spot you think you deserve... doesn't mean you do :] i'll be front if thats where i'm set. i might feel bad, but i'll do it better than you :] promise.

7. i cry a lot lately.

8. I'M OBSESSED WITH PRETTY LITTE LIARS!!!!!!

9. my obsession with clothing as strangely, and very sadly, disappeared :[
hopefully it will come back when school starts again....?

10. i REALLY...

REALLY

REALLY

REEEEEEEEAAAAAALLY

want to cut my hair to my shoulders again.

yes

or

no

???????????????????

11. i love you :]

12. I LOVE MY NEW TEAM!!!! you are the best people ever :] i'm excited for all our great times!

thats all for now :]

life is good.

dont complain.

thats dumb.

be grateful.

laugh... a lot.

make mistakes.... learn from them :]

enjoy everything you've been given..... theres a lot.

TAH

XXX

being invisible S.U.C.K.S.

Sweet pea, Apple of my eye...Don't know when and I don't know why....You're the only reason I keep on coming home....................................................Sweet pea, Keeper of my soul, I know sometimes I'm out of control. You're the only reason I keep on coming home.

oh how sadly pathetic that is... because it's true.

after this terrible weekend, (first getting a call canceling your date, second seeing a deer and almost peeing my pants, and a few more unfortunate events that i will not talk about. then the next day showing up at a baseball game to find that every single one of your stupid friends is there.... and you didn't receive an invite. o.u.c.h. then fighting a friend until she agrees to going to this party, but only if you'll come in and say hi. ((mind you i was NOT invited and was NOT intending on staying)) i went and found out that basically every single one of my stupid friends was there. o.u.c.h.) i realized that i have no friends.

none.

my 'team'.... yeah. they don't even acknowledge me. it's fine. NOT.
on more than one occasion, i will walk up to them and try to strike up a conversation, but i will get ignored.... like i wasn't even there, let alone speaking to them. sorry, *ladies*..... i didn't know i'm not good enough to hold a conversation with you. sorry for thinking you liked me. at least a little bit.

now... if you've never had this kind of feeling... you're lucky. because lately, it's my constant companion.

some might say it's my fault. maybe because of that boy, but let me inform you... it is not him.

the reason i spend so much time with him is because, from the very beginning, you never liked us. get over yourselves. it is your life??? NO. do you have any right to think the things you do or say the things you do?? NO.
thank goodness i have at least one person that will stick by my side. listen to my tears. my fears. my insecurities. thank goodness for best friends. you're the reason i keep comin home.
(and thank you to one friend inparticular...who sat with me and listened. i love you.)


have a fabulous week.
only 4 more days.
for me.
i'll try to enjoy it.
...and try not to burst into spontaneous tears.
TAH
XXX

Oh Hey: life. is. GOOD.

So.
I've been absent for a little while :] i've been worrying about

tryouts!!!

Yep...

CAVETTES!!!

We had clinics Tuesday and Wednesday, then tryouts yesterday. and let me tell you!! i was so confident!! i've never been like that before... i think i'm gonna make a habit of it :] i felt suuuuuper good about everything. and everything turned out just as i wanted it to!!!

the girls that have joined my team are great and i am SOOOOO EXCITED to get to know them!! we're going to be great friends and we're gonna have a greaaaaat year together :]

there are just a few things that i'm going to have to make clear to a few people :]

life is so great!!!!!
and its warm :]
AND ITS THE WEEKEND!!!
tah
xxx

May: first official day of sun bathing....

yes. i am one of those people who consider 60 degrees to be warm

but i couldn't help it!!

it was beautiful :]

and after lunch today.....

i just had to get back out there!

but this time, in a swimsuit.

it was very refreshing and i have my fill of vitamin D.

today i also decided what i'm doing this weekend.

1. i'm doing a makeover

2. it's going to be on a boy

3. i will be recieving one in return

4. it will be done by a boy

5. i have very willing and wonderful friends :]

TAHXXX

Chloe's random thoughts: i admire you.

While reading a blog post of a dearly loved friend, i realized that she may be one of the strongest people i know. you are amazing. and i look up to you so much.

when it comes to be my turn, i don't how i'm going to handle it. i just hope and pray that maybe, just maybe, i'll take it like you; like a strong girl who is excited about the future, and over looks the bad things. i look up to you so much. you are amazing.

while thinking about my future and what crazy things may happen, i realized that it's time to completely let go. don't be chloe. just totally let go and be free. because i don't think i have ever, not once, done that. i've always been my tightly wound, paranoid, fun sucking self.... too shy to be myself. and i'm not going to keep doing that. tryouts are in a week and half, and i am SO nervous. i'm working on my captains solo this weekend, and THAT is when i must let go and be anything but myself. wish me luck.

i have never looked up to so many people than i do right now. i am so very grateful for the people in my life. you have all taught me so much. whether it be from your mistakes, your trials, or your smiles; everything you do has blessed me richly. i love you.

i am going to stop being jealous. i am going to stop getting mad at people for no reason. i am only going to be excited and optimitic about things.

have a wonderful weekend.
i also hope i have one, too.


tahxxx