the parts of dancing i don't enjoy....

the 'giver-upers'.
the quitters.
the whiners.
the 'this-is-too-hard'ers.
the betrayal.
the petty competition between girls.
the 'i' in team.
sloppy arms.
sloppy legs.
not pointed toes.
and betrayal.

don't get me wrong.. i love and adore every person on my team.
but sometimes...
sometimes people rub you the wrong way.
and you get angry.
and want to punch things.
really hard.
over and over again.
and they only way to make that go away...is be better than them. let it go and kick their butt.

now that you've all seen the physical, and slightly scary, part of Chloe....
I'm gonna go now :]

have a lovely day!!

tah
xxx

the fibers of my being ache for this one passion... dance.

have you ever been so excited to do something... that your whole self feels EXCITED??? alive?

well goodness.

i feel as if my nerves are on fire.

all i want to do is dance.
to turn, turn for ages. and do it well, and beautifully.
to jump, to leap. to leap high, and with grace. to feel the beauty your body can create. to SOAR through the air.
to capture those moments, and movements, in pictures.
and to admire them.

this week i found that i love to jump. and that I'm quite good at it. i LOVE it.
i love to turn as well. as long as i am NOT in gore boots on newly refurnished floors.
:]

can i just say....

do what you're passionate about. and do it well! and love it! take it all in. don't let the hard times get you down. go for it!! go for it FULLY! don't have regrets :]

of course... we all envy ladies like these... and wish that we could be just as beautiful. maybe in my next life.

also.
i have red hair :] pictures... soon?

"... if we want a picture, I'll have to roll up shorts up, and pull my duck down."

tah\XO

cutest names!.. and random things..

i thought id share these names now before i forget that i love them :]

1. Sutton (girl)
2. Spencer (girl)
3. Phoebe (girl)
4 Andrew (boy)

haha... can you tell which kind of kid i want?? kind? i talk like they're a pair of shoes... oh well. not something I'll be actually thinking about for.... 10 years? yes, at least that :]

also.

school.
i really hate school. i have such an inward anger towards it.
I'll go to school, tell myself I'm going to be good that day and i won't get angry at the teachers...
but i go and what do i do??? lose my temper.
great. and whole other year of it.
and.
and I'm not very excited to see... some certain people.
I'll control myself and be nice..
i am just certainly NOT excited to see you :] :]


one more thing.

drill.
starts up again tomorrow.
who knows what direction I'll take:
1. stay with it and stick it out...and pray that the best happens.
or
2. quit, get a job, have a real social life, do well in school.... possibly get fat.
who knows!
tomorrow and Tuesday will determine my path...


I've got a brain full of random things lately :] its absolutely beautiful :]

nothing funny happens in life anymore. so...
tah/xxx

Oh Hey: life. is. GOOD.

So.
I've been absent for a little while :] i've been worrying about

tryouts!!!

Yep...

CAVETTES!!!

We had clinics Tuesday and Wednesday, then tryouts yesterday. and let me tell you!! i was so confident!! i've never been like that before... i think i'm gonna make a habit of it :] i felt suuuuuper good about everything. and everything turned out just as i wanted it to!!!

the girls that have joined my team are great and i am SOOOOO EXCITED to get to know them!! we're going to be great friends and we're gonna have a greaaaaat year together :]

there are just a few things that i'm going to have to make clear to a few people :]

life is so great!!!!!
and its warm :]
AND ITS THE WEEKEND!!!
tah
xxx

And my life begins again starting.....NOW!!!: Cavettes :)

Yaya!!! New coach has finally arrived!!
She's
Young
Blonde
TINY
Amazing dancer!!
AMERICAN FORK DRILL TEAM COACH!!
Her name is McCall Tickson :)
She used to coach Jordan (sucks for Jordan!) but now shes with us!
Iiiiiii have a wonderful feeling about her, some thinks she's too young, but looking at how Jordan did last year: 4th in region, 4th(I think) in state, 1st in nationals!! So she's bound to be good.... Right??
Oh I hope so :)
Yay for bad things!! They only bring better things to you :)

TahXXX

day one...

introduce yourself in words and pictures. easy.

me being a cavette...

me and my bestest friend...

one of the many different faces of Chloe...

just.
me.

so. as you can see... I'm kinda a wide variety type girl.
i love chocolate.
i love to read.
i love taking baths.
i love my friend.
i believe in God.
i believe in life.
and love.
i believe in laughter
and being happy.
i try to live my life to the best of my ability.
i don't know who i am, or who i will be.
(not yet anyways)
i don't hate.
i really don't like my profile.
i love to dance.
i miss doing it everyday.
i love my team.
i love to work hard at everything I'm given.
(except school. i nearly got a D-......)
i love my life and everything in it. including bad days, including trials, including every bad thing that has happened to me. they make me stronger :]

get to know me better :] maybe we'll be friends....

tah
XXX

still believing...

so. we don't really have anything to do now that drill is over... so we've just kinda messed around during the period :]

first. me and a few of my girls run at 7, then go work out.... it is soooo nice!

and second: we have now decided to go to the temple every Thursday!! not as a team... but kinda :]

yesterday, we got ready and what not... then we discovered i had my camera!!!

--what do a bunch of bored girls do with a camera???

take a look!!

don't you see why i love these girls so dang much?!

tah XXX

the worst weekend of my existance:

first:
no more drill team.
second:

no more prom.

don't you wish you had a weekend just like mine??

don't.

that would be a waste of your time.

tah

xxx

...And this is how the end of the story of the Cavettes goes:

THE TRAGEDIES OF A YOUNG GIRLS LIFE:

so.
everyone knows I'm on the drill team- or was- and everyone knows that it was my life. i loved waking up at 4:45 to go see my girls, to work my butt off, and to make my coaches, my school, and myself proud. i loved it.
but, every good thing has its downs. and this is mine.

*******************************

last night we had our end of the year showcase. this is when we perform all our competition dances and its our clinics for Jr. drill. and we had so much fun! so much fun! it was a great way to end the year.... not.
first, i was going to miss my seniors SO much/ second, i wasn't ready to give up my team, and third, i didn't want it to be the last time together. but... all good things have to end.
so right after showcase- we're all happy and bouncing off the walls and trying not to cry- our assistant coach comes in and says she wants to talk to us.

*** now. if you were me, wouldn't you think she was going to tell us how proud her and amber were? yeah, that's what i DID think. boy was i wrong.***

so we all gather 'round. she starts telling us how proud her and amber are and what a privilege it was to work with us this year and how much she's learned from all of it. then she says 'BUT'. uh oh.

"me and amber really love you guys, but as you know, Merrill has been fighting to end this team. we are so sorry to say that we are not coming back next year."

the rest is a blur.

they're gone!! they aren't coming back!!! after all the hard work, the time, the energy..... they aren't coming back. ouch.
so as you can imagine, we're all bawling and saying 'why, why, why', hoping that its not all true; we know it is. we. were. devastated.
as we all eventually shuffle out of the stuffy, moist, sticky locker rooms, we just keep bawling. we go to the gym and find out that it wasn't all Merrill who had cancelled us: it was our coach.

***okay. this is just what i heard. we aren't positive if this part is true, but they've got to have some part in it.***

and that news RIGHT THERE ^^^^, broke me. i bawled, i had to sit down, and it was just the worst thing ever.

***AN EXPERIENCE FROM THE DAY PREVIOUS***

we were all sitting around our coach after clinics. she was telling us about how important it was that we recruit and that we need to get as many girls as possible.... blah, blah, blah. we've heard about a million times by now.
then she asks who's trying out next year; we all raised our hands. except she didn't see mine! you should have seen this women's face. it was like she actually wanted me on her team. she wanted me!! not just my number.... and that was the best feeling: knowing my coach wanted me.

***now, back to last night***

after all that, and we don't have a team. wow. how do you think i felt??? this is what i was feeling:
frustrated that this was happening.
like i wasn't good enough because our coaches quit.
like i needed ibuprofen because my head was splitting.
like i needed the greatest hug I've ever gotten.
like all the things i sacrificed.... were a total waste.
and that this was only my first year. only my first.

we all then proceeded to go out to dinner and we had a marvelous time!! the best way to cure sadness is to laugh :] so that's what we did.

everything will be alright. i pray that it will.

I LOVE MY CAVETTES WITH ALL THAT I AM.....

have a lovely day at school and an even better weekend.

tah// XXX

*and hey! I'm going to prom :]