You are a diamond.. Precious, priceless, irreplaceable: drill team, year two: check!

You are a diamond/ worthy, dynamic, and strong/ capable of conquering all/ as gods child you belong/ among the heavens/ sparkling like rare jewels/ classy and proud/ feeling anew/ belief in yourself/ is a key to your life/ without it, you fall/ living in angst and strife/ take pride in yourself/ you're genuine and rare/ choose a life that is precious/ and gleam bright and fair/ you're a cut above the rest/ priceless and refined/ know your worth/ be spectacular, be divine/ for a diamond is a true find/ desired, loved, a prize/ And that is you, one of a kind: irreplaceable and wise.

I wish to express the love I have for my team. They are the best friends, sisters, and eternal companions anyone could ever have. I am incredibly blessed to have come to know and love these girls. They are a part of me, a part I won't EVER forget. They have made my junior year worth it :) true friends are the ones you fight with, confide in, laugh at, smile with, and spend all your time with... And they still love you :) thank you girls for being that for me :) an eternity of "thanks you's" wouldn't even begin to say how grateful I am to you! You got me through the hardest time of my life... I am who I am thanks to you :)

the parts of dancing i don't enjoy....

the 'giver-upers'.
the quitters.
the whiners.
the 'this-is-too-hard'ers.
the betrayal.
the petty competition between girls.
the 'i' in team.
sloppy arms.
sloppy legs.
not pointed toes.
and betrayal.

don't get me wrong.. i love and adore every person on my team.
but sometimes...
sometimes people rub you the wrong way.
and you get angry.
and want to punch things.
really hard.
over and over again.
and they only way to make that go away...is be better than them. let it go and kick their butt.

now that you've all seen the physical, and slightly scary, part of Chloe....
I'm gonna go now :]

have a lovely day!!

tah
xxx

the fibers of my being ache for this one passion... dance.

have you ever been so excited to do something... that your whole self feels EXCITED??? alive?

well goodness.

i feel as if my nerves are on fire.

all i want to do is dance.
to turn, turn for ages. and do it well, and beautifully.
to jump, to leap. to leap high, and with grace. to feel the beauty your body can create. to SOAR through the air.
to capture those moments, and movements, in pictures.
and to admire them.

this week i found that i love to jump. and that I'm quite good at it. i LOVE it.
i love to turn as well. as long as i am NOT in gore boots on newly refurnished floors.
:]

can i just say....

do what you're passionate about. and do it well! and love it! take it all in. don't let the hard times get you down. go for it!! go for it FULLY! don't have regrets :]

of course... we all envy ladies like these... and wish that we could be just as beautiful. maybe in my next life.

also.
i have red hair :] pictures... soon?

"... if we want a picture, I'll have to roll up shorts up, and pull my duck down."

tah\XO

cutest names!.. and random things..

i thought id share these names now before i forget that i love them :]

1. Sutton (girl)
2. Spencer (girl)
3. Phoebe (girl)
4 Andrew (boy)

haha... can you tell which kind of kid i want?? kind? i talk like they're a pair of shoes... oh well. not something I'll be actually thinking about for.... 10 years? yes, at least that :]

also.

school.
i really hate school. i have such an inward anger towards it.
I'll go to school, tell myself I'm going to be good that day and i won't get angry at the teachers...
but i go and what do i do??? lose my temper.
great. and whole other year of it.
and.
and I'm not very excited to see... some certain people.
I'll control myself and be nice..
i am just certainly NOT excited to see you :] :]


one more thing.

drill.
starts up again tomorrow.
who knows what direction I'll take:
1. stay with it and stick it out...and pray that the best happens.
or
2. quit, get a job, have a real social life, do well in school.... possibly get fat.
who knows!
tomorrow and Tuesday will determine my path...


I've got a brain full of random things lately :] its absolutely beautiful :]

nothing funny happens in life anymore. so...
tah/xxx

just some random things: happy, sad, thoughts, hearings, events...

well hi.
i know you have forgotten about Chloe's poor, poor blog.
but i'm back and ready to be happy again!!

just some random things.

1. i have heard from a few people that they know of people who read my blog. but they also mention that they think i might find it creepy.
HAHA.
let me asure you, i do not :] my blog is here for random people to read it :] please feel free (i would also greatly appreciate it) to comment :]

2. wow. ITS FINALLY SUMMER!!!

3. so.......
i'm obsessed with this show.
maybe you've heard of it??
Pretty Little Liars.
oh my.
which brings me to...

4. i'm FREAKING IN LOVE with all the music on that show!!!
its just the absolute best thing out there.
check it:

http://abcfamily.go.com/specials/music/videos-details/sound-booth/cant-go-back-now-the-weepies/pl_PL5570398/vd_VD55131623

http://abcfamily.go.com/specials/music/videos-details/sound-booth/add-my-effort-the-weepies/pl_PL5570398/vd_VD55131629

(that would just be two of my many favorites)


5. i'm happy again :] i got to see my friends, i got to finally enjoy summer weather. i got to sleep in passed 7!!!
life.
is.
good.

6. some people are dumb. get over yourselves. just cause i'm in the spot you think you deserve... doesn't mean you do :] i'll be front if thats where i'm set. i might feel bad, but i'll do it better than you :] promise.

7. i cry a lot lately.

8. I'M OBSESSED WITH PRETTY LITTE LIARS!!!!!!

9. my obsession with clothing as strangely, and very sadly, disappeared :[
hopefully it will come back when school starts again....?

10. i REALLY...

REALLY

REALLY

REEEEEEEEAAAAAALLY

want to cut my hair to my shoulders again.

yes

or

no

???????????????????

11. i love you :]

12. I LOVE MY NEW TEAM!!!! you are the best people ever :] i'm excited for all our great times!

thats all for now :]

life is good.

dont complain.

thats dumb.

be grateful.

laugh... a lot.

make mistakes.... learn from them :]

enjoy everything you've been given..... theres a lot.

TAH

XXX

being invisible S.U.C.K.S.

Sweet pea, Apple of my eye...Don't know when and I don't know why....You're the only reason I keep on coming home....................................................Sweet pea, Keeper of my soul, I know sometimes I'm out of control. You're the only reason I keep on coming home.

oh how sadly pathetic that is... because it's true.

after this terrible weekend, (first getting a call canceling your date, second seeing a deer and almost peeing my pants, and a few more unfortunate events that i will not talk about. then the next day showing up at a baseball game to find that every single one of your stupid friends is there.... and you didn't receive an invite. o.u.c.h. then fighting a friend until she agrees to going to this party, but only if you'll come in and say hi. ((mind you i was NOT invited and was NOT intending on staying)) i went and found out that basically every single one of my stupid friends was there. o.u.c.h.) i realized that i have no friends.

none.

my 'team'.... yeah. they don't even acknowledge me. it's fine. NOT.
on more than one occasion, i will walk up to them and try to strike up a conversation, but i will get ignored.... like i wasn't even there, let alone speaking to them. sorry, *ladies*..... i didn't know i'm not good enough to hold a conversation with you. sorry for thinking you liked me. at least a little bit.

now... if you've never had this kind of feeling... you're lucky. because lately, it's my constant companion.

some might say it's my fault. maybe because of that boy, but let me inform you... it is not him.

the reason i spend so much time with him is because, from the very beginning, you never liked us. get over yourselves. it is your life??? NO. do you have any right to think the things you do or say the things you do?? NO.
thank goodness i have at least one person that will stick by my side. listen to my tears. my fears. my insecurities. thank goodness for best friends. you're the reason i keep comin home.
(and thank you to one friend inparticular...who sat with me and listened. i love you.)


have a fabulous week.
only 4 more days.
for me.
i'll try to enjoy it.
...and try not to burst into spontaneous tears.
TAH
XXX

Oh Hey: life. is. GOOD.

So.
I've been absent for a little while :] i've been worrying about

tryouts!!!

Yep...

CAVETTES!!!

We had clinics Tuesday and Wednesday, then tryouts yesterday. and let me tell you!! i was so confident!! i've never been like that before... i think i'm gonna make a habit of it :] i felt suuuuuper good about everything. and everything turned out just as i wanted it to!!!

the girls that have joined my team are great and i am SOOOOO EXCITED to get to know them!! we're going to be great friends and we're gonna have a greaaaaat year together :]

there are just a few things that i'm going to have to make clear to a few people :]

life is so great!!!!!
and its warm :]
AND ITS THE WEEKEND!!!
tah
xxx

And my life begins again starting.....NOW!!!: Cavettes :)

Yaya!!! New coach has finally arrived!!
She's
Young
Blonde
TINY
Amazing dancer!!
AMERICAN FORK DRILL TEAM COACH!!
Her name is McCall Tickson :)
She used to coach Jordan (sucks for Jordan!) but now shes with us!
Iiiiiii have a wonderful feeling about her, some thinks she's too young, but looking at how Jordan did last year: 4th in region, 4th(I think) in state, 1st in nationals!! So she's bound to be good.... Right??
Oh I hope so :)
Yay for bad things!! They only bring better things to you :)

TahXXX