week one of christmas break: lovely.

Guys, this passed week has been utterly amazing :] not because i did anything really fun, or saw a lot of people, because i did neither :] but because i hung out with my favorite people, and did nothing :]

MONDAY:
Monday I'm sure i did nothing. which is very logical because you see, we had our first competition on Saturday. it was very long; 14 hours to be exact. so i took that day to catch up on sleep and do nothing :]

TUESDAY:
this day was my wonderful boyfriends birthday :] this year, i felt very proud of my gift to him. i was a little worried it would be thought of as too girly, but he liked it enough :]
for his birthday, all we did was hang out at his house, play a little ping pong, and watch the weirdest movie i have ever seen: THE MAN WHO KNEW TOO LITTLE. it was so strange.
i made cranberry, jalapeno relish, which ended up being a total hit :]
this night was so simple, that it made my list of favorite days :]
and there wasn't even a goodnight kiss... i guess he actually likes me for me and not my lips (yes girls, that is very possible:))

WEDNESDAY:
i had to take my sisters out so that my mommy could finish wrapping Christmas gifts. so i took them to see TIN TIN. it actually wasn't that bad! and the only upside to this was Dall and his sisters joined us :] Haha, my sisters now believe me that they are very quiet and shy :]

THURSDAY:
another day spent with my best friend :] aah.... he is the best person :] he so kindly volunteered his house this whole week... i was over there a whole lot :]
after he had his choir practiced, i went over there and watched BETTER OFF DEAD, the other movie we had to choose from on his birthday. this movie was also so dumb... haha, oh the good ole 80's...
it doesn't sound very excited, and it wasn't, but... i don't know! i love these nights :]

FRIDAY:
Friday :] its always the best night of the week :]
Dall called and told me i had been invited to his family last minute white elephant party :] it was so short notice that i didn't have anything to bring, so he just came and picked me up; my present was a surprise to me and everyone else but Alice :]
even though it was small, and they all thought it was lame, i thought it was fun and sweet :] i ended up with hello kitty headphones... which i actually liked (that's not supposed to happen, is it??) :)
we then went to the kitchen and made snowflakes :] this always sounded so cute in my head... and it was in real life :] his cute sisters came and joined us... they are very good at making snowflakes. much better than me, actually. we laughed and giggled and had lots of fun :]
haha, now, the rest of the night was so random :]
we sat on his coach and we literally laughed until we cried!! i never thought him to be that funny, but oh boy was he :] you know those things that really aren't funny, but you re so elated that you laugh and laugh anyway?? that's what we did :] he literally had tears running down his face:] i did, too! i loved it :]
after i so kindly asked him to take me home, we laughed and laughed all the way there. he stopped at a stop sign and planted a solid kiss on my lips... something i hadn't gotten all week :] it was a nice surprise :] when he pulled into my driveway, he kissed me again. we were saying goodbye when he came to kiss me again. i obviously kissed him back, cause kissing is nice, but i just couldn't take him seriously and laughed all over his face! hahahahaha..... its okay, he totally denied me right before :] that's just how we are :] not very serious :]

SATURDAY:
Christmas EVE! we saw WE BOUGHT A ZOO to pass time :]
this movie was SO cute!!! i did cry a few times, but it was just so sweet and inspirational! and so real.... there was no avoiding it.

"ALL IT TAKES IT 20 SECONDS OF INSANE BRAVERY."

oh boy, do i believe this.
i like it so much that it's going to be my new life motto :]

SUNDAY:
CHRISTMAS!!!
it was a good day :]
i didn't get much, but that's okay because i didn't ask for anything, or felt like i was in need of anything :] so my mommy gave me a nice $100 bill to get a few more presents :]
we had church, which was awesome! slept, and played with our new toys :] love Christmas!

my favorite gift:
THE KISSING HAND. this is the gift i got from Dallin. i opened the cover, and out fell a note. his notes are always so sweet! though it was short, it still had the power to bring me to tears :] they always do :] after reading through the book, the back cover held another note. in this note was his hand with a big heart drawn in the middle. at the bottom it said: I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU!
it again brought me to tears :]



and there you have it! my incredibly simple week :] simple is my favorite :]


i hope you all had a great week, and hope you have another one this week :]

happy holidays
tahXX

i'm slackin.. but i'm goin to homecoming!

hey blogging world. I'm back.. maybe.
if i have time :]
I've just been so busy! you know... school.
it really truly sucks.

the first week was the worst thing  I've ever had in school history. going back to having no friends, to adjusting to knew classes, new people. to just feeling alone because you don't know how to handle anything.

wondering if you're losing your boyfriend because he's so busy and distant, and wondering more if that's what everyone else thinks because every other person asks if you're together. and kind of rude, ridiculous, and disrespectful girls are trying to make a move with MY boyfriend. you can have him when he's no longer attached to me. actually, not even then. k, thanks.

this week has been much much MUCH better :] oh so much better. i made goals, and goals are great things. they just make you focus on things other than the things that make you upset.

AND!!!!
i got asked to homecoming :]
FINALLY! (;])
here's how it went:

my daddy told me i had to be home at 9 because there was something important waiting at home for me.
so i went home, and was handed a bag with paper slips in it. it was a scavenger hunt.. sort of. i had to go around town looking for the rest of my clues.

****

but! with each new place i went, i received letters. and they were spelling out the name of someone i was ABSOLUTELY not going with, so i was kinda pissed the whole time.

****

the last place i went told me that that WASN'T the person taking me and told me to go to Larson Park to find the name of my homecoming date. RELIEF!

problem:
i had no idea where Larson Park was. so i was lost for a few minutes and it was frustrating.

i ended up going to that park with the gazebo.. you know which one I'm talking about? well there was a car parked on the grass with its lights on shining at the gazebo. i drove in there, but wasn't sure if it was the right place, so i turned around, looked some more, and went back and parked.
i got out of my car and walked to the gazebo where my CUUUUTE boyfriend waited with my favorite flowers :] he then asked me to homecoming :]

oh he is just the sweeeeeetest thing ever!!! i love him :] and i am so excited to go :]
i found my dress today!! yes!!!
pictures soon :]

".....i found a whisker on my neck!"

tahxxx

my addiction to traveling: where i want to go.

i've made a list of things to accomplish and places to go.

lately all i've wanted to do is travel.
i'm addicted to it like a drug.

#1



Temple in the Middle East.

#2

Take cute pictures in front of the Eiffel Tower.

#3

go golfing in Scotland

#4

go walking in the rain of Wales

#5

go snorkeling in Hawaii

#6

go on an African Safari

#7

rafting in Peru



no one understands my gravitational pull to traveling....

its weird to explain.

so just get me out of here!!

some people feel they are made to do something.

this is what i believe i was sent to do.



"hey look. that sign says you have to be "40" (inches) to buy alcohol."

actually... those are parenthesis.

tah

XXX

best week: ever. period.

Tuesday: getting caught in the rain with my best friend, my other really good friend, and his sudden obsession ((a very beautiful girl whom i love)). very wonderful.

Wednesday: mmmmm... SPARKLERS WITH JILL AND HEIDI! check it:

Thursday: i had a lazy day. my best friend. me. sitting and watching movies together. and nothing else. makeup-less. cute hair-less. and in nothing figure complimenting in any way. very wonderful.

Friday: a short trip to the pool. me. my best friend. my very close friend. without his sudden obsession ((we heard about how much he missed her)). but only 3 short hours. not enough.

Saturday: started with a parade: hot. long. sweaty. pretty alright.
               went hiking: waited. for hour and a half. went. to the wrong 200 south ((we were in Lindon... we were supposed to be in pg)). my best friend getting us unlost after getting us lost. pretty funny.

                getting there: going up the wrong trail. finding the right trail. wow.... going up hill. the whole time. basically running. thank goodness for waterfalls. pretty beautiful.

                *time in between: finding a spot. painting with mud. pushing in. quiet time. spying ((hahahahaha!!!!! oh man. can't wait to hear about the details)). running back down the trail. only to find out we didn't have to rush. pretty.... amazing. ((that word doesn't even work in my vocabulary anymore)).

                getting ready: cute hair. fresh makeup. blue poncho. green floral shorts. earrings. sandals ((that never actually made in on my feet for more than 10 minutes)). going to Adams. pretty pumped.

                driving there: boy: "hey! we saved you some pizza!" me:"they saved us some pizza!!" girl:"did you say 2 pieces?? man.. we could eat two pizzas!". pretty hungry.

                showing up: "2 pieces?!" hahahahahahahaha. pizza. crazy bread. brownies. no scary movies ((because we didn't want people to be sleeping with their parents)). chick flicks. sleepless in Seattle. tomatoes. pretty funny.
                fireworks: driving forever trying to find somewhere to park. finding a place. running into parents. sitting away from parents ((not that i would have minded sitting with them)). the most amazing firework show I've seen. beautiful.
                waiting for traffic to slow: cuddling. patcha ((from the emperors new groove)). laughing. dry eyes. wet eyes. pretty perfect.

what an amazing week.

love being surrounded with those i love.

love actually having a summer.

love being happy.

love kissing.

love. love. love.

love incomplete sentences.

and periods.

makes things sound final.

love my readers.

COMMENT!!!

tahXXX    ((Cali on Friday!! whoop! might come back without hair. we'll see :)))

summer nights: caught in the rain

park. thunder. lightening. beautiful sights. shining lights. pouring rain. soaking wet. running. holding hands. ice cream. movies.

l.o.v.e.

we got caught in the middle of the pouring rain.

the warm, heavy, beautiful, summer rain.

oh.

those summer nights.

tah/xxx

just some random things: happy, sad, thoughts, hearings, events...

well hi.
i know you have forgotten about Chloe's poor, poor blog.
but i'm back and ready to be happy again!!

just some random things.

1. i have heard from a few people that they know of people who read my blog. but they also mention that they think i might find it creepy.
HAHA.
let me asure you, i do not :] my blog is here for random people to read it :] please feel free (i would also greatly appreciate it) to comment :]

2. wow. ITS FINALLY SUMMER!!!

3. so.......
i'm obsessed with this show.
maybe you've heard of it??
Pretty Little Liars.
oh my.
which brings me to...

4. i'm FREAKING IN LOVE with all the music on that show!!!
its just the absolute best thing out there.
check it:

http://abcfamily.go.com/specials/music/videos-details/sound-booth/cant-go-back-now-the-weepies/pl_PL5570398/vd_VD55131623

http://abcfamily.go.com/specials/music/videos-details/sound-booth/add-my-effort-the-weepies/pl_PL5570398/vd_VD55131629

(that would just be two of my many favorites)


5. i'm happy again :] i got to see my friends, i got to finally enjoy summer weather. i got to sleep in passed 7!!!
life.
is.
good.

6. some people are dumb. get over yourselves. just cause i'm in the spot you think you deserve... doesn't mean you do :] i'll be front if thats where i'm set. i might feel bad, but i'll do it better than you :] promise.

7. i cry a lot lately.

8. I'M OBSESSED WITH PRETTY LITTE LIARS!!!!!!

9. my obsession with clothing as strangely, and very sadly, disappeared :[
hopefully it will come back when school starts again....?

10. i REALLY...

REALLY

REALLY

REEEEEEEEAAAAAALLY

want to cut my hair to my shoulders again.

yes

or

no

???????????????????

11. i love you :]

12. I LOVE MY NEW TEAM!!!! you are the best people ever :] i'm excited for all our great times!

thats all for now :]

life is good.

dont complain.

thats dumb.

be grateful.

laugh... a lot.

make mistakes.... learn from them :]

enjoy everything you've been given..... theres a lot.

TAH

XXX

being invisible S.U.C.K.S.

Sweet pea, Apple of my eye...Don't know when and I don't know why....You're the only reason I keep on coming home....................................................Sweet pea, Keeper of my soul, I know sometimes I'm out of control. You're the only reason I keep on coming home.

oh how sadly pathetic that is... because it's true.

after this terrible weekend, (first getting a call canceling your date, second seeing a deer and almost peeing my pants, and a few more unfortunate events that i will not talk about. then the next day showing up at a baseball game to find that every single one of your stupid friends is there.... and you didn't receive an invite. o.u.c.h. then fighting a friend until she agrees to going to this party, but only if you'll come in and say hi. ((mind you i was NOT invited and was NOT intending on staying)) i went and found out that basically every single one of my stupid friends was there. o.u.c.h.) i realized that i have no friends.

none.

my 'team'.... yeah. they don't even acknowledge me. it's fine. NOT.
on more than one occasion, i will walk up to them and try to strike up a conversation, but i will get ignored.... like i wasn't even there, let alone speaking to them. sorry, *ladies*..... i didn't know i'm not good enough to hold a conversation with you. sorry for thinking you liked me. at least a little bit.

now... if you've never had this kind of feeling... you're lucky. because lately, it's my constant companion.

some might say it's my fault. maybe because of that boy, but let me inform you... it is not him.

the reason i spend so much time with him is because, from the very beginning, you never liked us. get over yourselves. it is your life??? NO. do you have any right to think the things you do or say the things you do?? NO.
thank goodness i have at least one person that will stick by my side. listen to my tears. my fears. my insecurities. thank goodness for best friends. you're the reason i keep comin home.
(and thank you to one friend inparticular...who sat with me and listened. i love you.)


have a fabulous week.
only 4 more days.
for me.
i'll try to enjoy it.
...and try not to burst into spontaneous tears.
TAH
XXX

May: first official day of sun bathing....

yes. i am one of those people who consider 60 degrees to be warm

but i couldn't help it!!

it was beautiful :]

and after lunch today.....

i just had to get back out there!

but this time, in a swimsuit.

it was very refreshing and i have my fill of vitamin D.

today i also decided what i'm doing this weekend.

1. i'm doing a makeover

2. it's going to be on a boy

3. i will be recieving one in return

4. it will be done by a boy

5. i have very willing and wonderful friends :]

TAHXXX

What used to be... is no longer: my best friend.

the best thing about my best friend was the fact that she was always there for me.
we were absolutely INSEPERABLE. I was often referred to as 'the 4th daughter'.
we shared everything!!

secrets.

clothes.

beds.

feelings.

friends.

she was my sister. We fought like it... so therefor it's true.
she was an example to me.
she wasn't my religion... but she was my testimony. she taught me so much.
she was boy crazy :] still is, actually.
she is gorgeous.
she is ursula, brunette fetching whore, stephababe, panda g-string, ephanie bladwin.
(my long lost best friend.)

oh boy do i miss her.
she has changed so much i can't hardly bare to be with her.
maybe thats why i haven't been.......

or maybe it's that boy.

that boy.

baseball.

her equal.

long eyelashes.

shy.

poland.

as much as i wish i loved him.... i can't. i've tried to accept him. accept them.

it's just not working.

hey, best friend:

read this.

come back to me :]

example: we are wearing eachothers clothes from head to toe...

we are photoshoot buddies...

since 7th grade.

she a freak. and i miss her.

tahXXX