cutest names!.. and random things..

i thought id share these names now before i forget that i love them :]

1. Sutton (girl)
2. Spencer (girl)
3. Phoebe (girl)
4 Andrew (boy)

haha... can you tell which kind of kid i want?? kind? i talk like they're a pair of shoes... oh well. not something I'll be actually thinking about for.... 10 years? yes, at least that :]

also.

school.
i really hate school. i have such an inward anger towards it.
I'll go to school, tell myself I'm going to be good that day and i won't get angry at the teachers...
but i go and what do i do??? lose my temper.
great. and whole other year of it.
and.
and I'm not very excited to see... some certain people.
I'll control myself and be nice..
i am just certainly NOT excited to see you :] :]


one more thing.

drill.
starts up again tomorrow.
who knows what direction I'll take:
1. stay with it and stick it out...and pray that the best happens.
or
2. quit, get a job, have a real social life, do well in school.... possibly get fat.
who knows!
tomorrow and Tuesday will determine my path...


I've got a brain full of random things lately :] its absolutely beautiful :]

nothing funny happens in life anymore. so...
tah/xxx

Sunday Blues: blank?

It's Sunday morning....
&& I'm sick.
Lovely.











**trying to find a good app for blogging with.. Any suggestions???

Tah
XXX

P.S. Crying is dumb. Anyone know how to drain tear ducts?? Permanently?

What used to be... is no longer: my best friend.

the best thing about my best friend was the fact that she was always there for me.
we were absolutely INSEPERABLE. I was often referred to as 'the 4th daughter'.
we shared everything!!

secrets.

clothes.

beds.

feelings.

friends.

she was my sister. We fought like it... so therefor it's true.
she was an example to me.
she wasn't my religion... but she was my testimony. she taught me so much.
she was boy crazy :] still is, actually.
she is gorgeous.
she is ursula, brunette fetching whore, stephababe, panda g-string, ephanie bladwin.
(my long lost best friend.)

oh boy do i miss her.
she has changed so much i can't hardly bare to be with her.
maybe thats why i haven't been.......

or maybe it's that boy.

that boy.

baseball.

her equal.

long eyelashes.

shy.

poland.

as much as i wish i loved him.... i can't. i've tried to accept him. accept them.

it's just not working.

hey, best friend:

read this.

come back to me :]

example: we are wearing eachothers clothes from head to toe...

we are photoshoot buddies...

since 7th grade.

she a freak. and i miss her.

tahXXX