It was a bit of a different feeling than the first time two weeks ago. Maybe it was because I didn't get a final Skype goodbye, or maybe it was the sweet "I love you" I got. We said it all the time, but for some reason, this time, the personalized message, made it so different. For the first time, I didn't want my missionaries to leave. I wanted to be selfish and ask them to stay; to give me one final hug.
As I was hiking Schmittenhöhe, a peak in Austria, I was over looking the view and thinking how much my heart has grown for the people I know. Like the Grinch, it was as if I could feel my heart growing in size. It could have been the lack of seeing these people, but I felt so.. Personally attached. I felt loved, and I felt missed, and I felt thought- of.
Because I know that I, little simple, plain, Chloe, am loved by these people.
It's an amazing feeling to love a person, to say that you love them, and to know that they know. That it isn't taken in a way that would be mistaken as "in love". I am extremely fortunate to have 4 people I would give my life for in one second. And that they would do the same.
They make this small knot in time, this time on earth, worth every trial, heartache, and confusion. They make the eternities more beautiful because they'll be in it and I was fortunate to know them before then.
I'm surrounded by beauty here, and it's special I got to leave something so important to me here while I go. So many moments, so many feelings. I can't wait to come back and experience it all again, in a different way. Hopefully with the man I love.
... I've only thought of "doors" here in Austria.
Chloe
xx
Here's to you, my two final (almost. I've got a special missionary to send off in two weeks now) missionaries. Until we meet again.
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