It's so hard to watch old friends slowly fall off the straight and narrow...

It starts with skipping church one day, wearing a bikini in the backyard, letting a bad word slip, missing class once or twice, hanging out with people who aren't the best, but not participating; shorter shorts than the ones you wore last year, lower shirts... Like I get it. Things are appealing, but I won't follow in your footsteps. And I hope you see what you're doing..

This week brought me smiles :) the smallest things can make the biggest difference- and people don't know that they're helping.
Things like a smile, a "hello", a "good job on your paper", a laugh at my not-so-funny joke, the confidence in my clothing choices, the simple "I love you"'s between my sweet friends, the "how are you today, clo?", temple, YW leaders, friends you've known for years talking and being interested, compliments from total strangers, bike rides alone through the beautiful streets of Utah, waves, old faces, happy tears, reminiscent years, "thank you"'s, "you're welcome", the puzzled looks, good cooks, cute pictures, my ticking watch :) art in the commons, creativity of others, my pink pants :) pretty eyes, happy eyes, confessions, honesty, old letters, memories, heart strings shaken... All these things have made my week bearable :) and they are all small things..

By small and simple things are GREAT things brought to pass...

Have a endearingly lovely weekend :)
Tah

(Before I start, just know that I ramble. A lot. And I'm quite the scatterbrain).

Right now, at this exact moment.. I'm grateful for everything :) I'm so much more appreciative of the little things :) I feel genuine happiness :) whether that stays tomorrow, that's up to me- but I hope it does, cause I miss feeling happy and I miss caring :)

Whatever happens tomorrow, we've had today - One Day

My goodness... Crying because I feel happy!? Can we tell I've been lacking that lately?? :) I'll take small, insignificant moments like this any day... Just to replace the anger and frustration. I would rather live in this moment forever then feel angry ever again. I've felt enough anger to last me two lifetimes.

Smiling.. I like it :)
Thank you :) It means the world :)

Late night call, tears, and a blog post.. Random :) but nice... Incredibly nice :)
Tah.

I'm so sorry.

1) Everyone deserves a second chance. But nothing more. Anything after that is a decision.. Not a mistake.

2) Don't put up with peoples crap. You can be a hell of a lot happier alone if they're making you miserable.

3) You always have a choice. Mine was to forgive... But I won't do it again because I know I can eventually be happy without you.

4) I'm really thankful for this rollarcoaster we call life- it gives me experience. I hope others can look at my mistakes, learn from them, and not make them themselves.

5) I truly am thankful for low times in life :) sounds crazy- but I'll be stronger, happier, and smarter because of these trials :)

TRY. trying can make or break a situation. I'm TRYING real hard... Even if you can't see it.

Tahx.